17.1.09

In Spirit & Truth

We know that the chief end of man is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever. We know that our heavenly existence will be one of eternal worship and revelation about our Father in Heaven, and in this our purpose is fulfilled.

The issue doesn't seem to be whether we should worship our God in heaven, but how. I've been studying into this matter lately, and I want to lay out a few points for consideration. On one side, we have what seem to be the staunch formalists, with hymnals and organs and all of the things the present world deems "boring." On the other, we have those desiring a more liberated worship, where you find your overheads and worship bands and whatnot. To the person who gives it little though, there seems no issue. "People should worship how they want," is the general sentiment. "As long as it doesn't go against God, anything's fine. You need to be pouring out your heart to God." The idea here is that we should come to the altar in a way that connects us emotionally with God. We have imagined that this fulfills His glory and Our enjoyment.

It is that very heart in this issue that has become a concern to me, however. Because in scripture, Old Testament and New, God never was worshiped so that man's earthly enjoyment could be fulfilled. Not to say that we shouldn't enjoy worship, but it seems lately that the focus of our worship has come less away from God's glory and more upon how much we enjoy what we're doing. In "With Reverence and Awe," authors D.G. Hart and John R. Muether make this point: Because we think we are more sincere when we are spontaneous and liberated from restraint, we are tempted to conclude that informal, casual worship frees the emotions and that formality or restraint represses our emotions. Somehow we can't enjoy God if we can't offer up all of our emotions, including our desire to be casual. The problem with this thinking arises when we consider how easily our feelings can fool us. We can all too easily fake sincerity and zeal. What is more, we are fallen and do not always feel the proper emotions. So by themselves, emotions serve as no standard."

I have to agree with this point. Remember that I said, our focus has become our earthly enjoyment? When we say that man's chief end is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever, I do not think it will be because heaven will include airy, lulling chords and hazy, dimmed lights or a pumped up atmosphere where we will jump and clap our hands forever -- if my saying this offends some of you, forgive me. I only ask you to hear my point here. Our eternal enjoyment of God will have nothing to do with a "style" of worship. I think our eternal enjoyment of God will have much more to do with His divine attributes -- His holiness, His righteousness, His love, His abounding mercy and grace. This seems most in line with scripture to me, which boasts so frequently in these things! Compared to these traits, it seems unfortunate to me that we have made the pendulum of what defines worship swing not on the attributes of God, but on the fleshly appeal of the service. We've somehow gotten to thinking that worship is how much we enjoy the worship, and that this in turn glorifies God, rather than considering that perhaps worship is about the divine attributes of God which do glorify Him, and that our response -- our fulfillment of the worship -- is to enjoy these things.

Again, and more simply, think about everything the Bible says about this temporal world and the desires of the flesh. "Everything is lawful, but not everything is expedient." Likewise, it is not wrong to enjoy things in this world, do not think I am saying that. It is not wrong to enjoy your spouse, your home, your pets, your foods. It is not wrong to even enjoy a bit of entertainment. What is wrong is to esteem these things above the things of God. Knowing that the things of the flesh were never the focus of our heavenly existence, why do we think that what immediately appeals to our flesh must be the best we can offer to God? If this were true, then worship could also be taking a second honeymoon, Christian fellowship could also be playing football with church buddies, and preaching could also be telling a joke about what happened at work the other day. If we've somehow come to the thinking that our worship of God is no different than our every day life, then we have every excuse to look no differently than the world. Worship was never about appealing to the desires of this world. We can enjoy the things that God has given us and He receives glory in this, but worship in scripture was always something peculiar and set apart from all worldly activities.

When your focus is on how pumped up you could get or how the chords and atmosphere could make you emotional and tearful, it is easy to think you have repented and committed our life to God. Yet the very same mechanisms hype us up and make us cry in a movie. How do we really know whether we have truly brought our heart before God or whether we've just fed and manipulated by an emotional experience? How do we know that those things we felt and thought during the service will last and make a difference in our life? ... What about those who are coming to Christ for the first time, when they respond to an altar call? How do they know that they've truly repented and believed on Christ -- or whether they were just so emotionally susceptible that anything felt right to them in that moment?

Why then for the hymnals and the organs and whatnot? Are we intentionally trying to make it "boring" so that we might legalistically impose against these "fleshly" things?

Heavens no! In fact, I would submit to you that if you could come to church with your mind on the right things, these things would not be boring to you even despite the simplistic form of worship. It's one thing to be tearful because a song hit the right chords; it's another to be tearful because you've truly realized the meaning of "It was my sin that held him there, until it was accomplished; His dying breath has brought me life, I know that it is finished!" Our reasoning is that we simply do not want to distract or detract from these foundational truths. We minimalise the music so that the words can be emphasised. We minimise the volume of the accompaniment so that the focus can be on the congregation singing together. We keep the words in a book so that they can be read and considered and dwelt upon at the pace of the reader, not the pace of the song. We don't have a problem making these compromises because the focus was never on the entertainment and emotional satisfaction of the people but on the worship of God and the enjoyment of His attributes. When you come to church with your mind on the right things -- the simple truths of God -- there is much more assurance that your convictions and your commitments will be true. I fully believe that the truth of the scriptures has a life-changing potency, because it is the inspired and holy word of God.

Think on this: the intense emotional atmosphere that some churches provide, they are certainly not there all of the time. When you are serving the homeless on a cold night, it will not be there. When you are amidst a tribal people for years and years, you will neither find it there. And you will not find it when you have gone to be with the Father in heaven!

But on those nights, and in those years and well into eternity, even, you will still have His eternal attributes. You will have His glory and omnipotence and immutability and grace and righteousness and holiness and love. You will have His forgiveness. It is not simply for "doctrine" that we emphasise these things -- they are what the Christian life is about: not our earthly enjoyment but on these heavenly things. And if you truly grasp these things -- even a taste of them -- there is nothing more you could possibly want! Having these things, what can be compared? Having the grace of God, what more could you want in a song? Having His holiness, what could you possibly add?

Truly we say that He is sufficient. We do not need to make our worship of Him overelabourate. Let the truths of His divine love reign over the music. Let the atmosphere be one brought not by technical advances but spiritual ones, made because of what the Spirit has communicated in the reading of His word. Let our earthly desires succumb to the will of our Father in Heaven, who calls for a worship made in spirit and in truth. Amen?



5.1.09

A Dilemma in God's Hands

I haven't updated many of you on my predicament lately, and I thought I should.

Many of you know that this past summer, my friend Rachel and I left for Waukesha, Wisconsin to start school at New Tribes Bible Institute. While there, I had a variety of classes, services, and ministries with New Tribes, and I also found a pleasant church, both traditional and reformed. It quickly welcomed me, and there I found so much wonderful Christian fellowship and edifying preaching to really raise my standards of what I hope for in a church. Simply, it was fantastic.

I made some financial sacrifices before and while at school and I hoped that they would pay off. In fact, I thought they would; when my car was wrecked, Rae's insurance company was supposed to make restitution. But, apparently, they were able to find a loophole in the contract and needless to say, they won't be paying anything on the car. Thus, I am broke.

Though it makes little difference at this point, I also do not have the option of living in the dorms this semester. So short of a few grace days upon returning, I must somehow find a place to live and to work, as well as figure out the public transportation system. I don't think I even have enough to get me started in this.

I have a returning flight to Waukesha in less than a week's time. I plan to take it, not because I "believe" for certain that God will provide -- I know that all things are subject to His will -- but because, at the very least, I need to go and get my stuff from the dorm.

If I have to return to Pittsburgh, it's not that tragic. Just difficult. There is a church here that I can go to. It is not nominally "Reformed Baptist" but a calvinistic Southern Baptist church (in Pennsylvania; go figure!) The soteriology is the same, the preaching mechanism is similar, and the people there are kind and welcoming. There is the matter of its eschatology seems mildly divided between dispensationalism and covenant, and the worship is mostly regulated in content but made contemporary in style. Nothing that distorts my overall positive impression of the church. It still isn't the same one I came to adore back at school.

I'm finding it difficult, here. I left behind a lot here in Pittsburgh when I left. I thought I would come back and pick up where I left off, but nothing's ever how you imagine it, yeah? I used to seldom miss a week of bible study at First Evangelical Free, or night of fellowship at South Hills Assembly's young adults service. I did neither of these the past three weeks I've been here! Part of what discouraged me was the proverbial "two birds in the bush" dilemma; both gatherings are now at the same time on the same night. To top that, the Southern Baptist church I mentioned above has a bible study on that night. Trying to figure out between the three has left me choosing nothing at all. Needless to say, things aren't the same.

There is a respect in which things are the same, and I wish they weren't. Being back at home brings back so many habits of the flesh. Around girls I barely know, I can hold my tongue when I feel frusterated. Around my family, not so much. This is the tip of a very deep, dark iceberg.

There is a sense, though I love my friends here, though there are aspects to Pittsburgh which I do sometimes miss, that I still rather live under a bridge in Waukesha than sleep one more night in my bed here. Comically, the thing that holds me back is that I know people would not allow it but would rather insist I return "home" and get a job. Which I may have to do.

God will see His Will through, this much I know. It's my part in all of this that I am fuzzy on. Surely I know I must obey Him in all circumstances. It can be the hardest thing to seek to genuinely serve God in an area and to yet have Him possibly close that door. Harder still to try and make new plans which involve incredibly large decisions when your heart was never ready to do as much. For once in my life, though, I am tired of moving around. I actually want to be settled! But not here... It is my heart in the matter that requires so much prayer.

I cannot help but hold out still a little hope, that there will be some way for me to continue on in Waukesha this year, both in the church and in the school there.

4.1.09

The drama isn't worth it!

The human condition is really getting me distraught, lately.

We base our assessments of something on a very limited knowledge, think little, judge quickly. Jump to defend; quick to offend. Fight bitterly. Make rash statements. Build assumption upon assumption. Think little before we speak. We don't consider. We don't chew on things. We don't even guess whether there might be another side. We speak as though we speak privately (forgetting that one day all things come to light.)

Gossip ceaselessly. Hunting for faults. Speak with the intention of provoking. Never stopping to consider that we might be hurting someone.

Looking to poke fun. Assuming we know one's character at a glance. Not actually bothering to know for sure ... Listening to others instead of finding out.

Listen: I'm not of the "don't judge me!" crowd -- the one that resorts to a poorly quoted scripture to excuse any and every sin. I'll discern more boldly than many, and I'm often hated for it. But there is a context for our judgments, and that -- that we not be hypocrites ... "Remove the log from your own eye FIRST," say the scriptures, before you judge a speck in your brother's.

How quickly we resort to ad hominems! "You're a religious biggot / deceitful wolf / stupid girl -- your arguments don't count!" If there is a spine to a statement it's a weak one; often there have no defense at all. Just self-righteous know-better pride. Speaking out of ignorance; upholding it with arrogance.

Craving drama. Craving something to feel important / be pitied / be exalted ....

STOP.

Just think. Really think. Really think before you speak so critically!

Consider this //
-Is it true?
-(Do you have a basis for that?)
-Does it need to be heard?
-Will it encourage another?
-... But are you also guilty?
-Are you willing to be proved wrong?
-Does it glorify God?


The heart is deceitful above all things -- who can know it!

"And the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell. For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and sea creature, can be tamed and has been tamed by mankind, but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse people who are made in the likeness of God. From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so. Does a spring pour forth from the same opening both fresh and salt water? Can a fig tree, my brothers, bear olives, or a grapevine produce figs? Neither can a salt pond yield fresh water." (James 3:6-12)

Oh, brothers ... take care, take so much care of what you say. Wars have been started over less.